Thought I was strong

I chose the night instead of light
Wrong turns felt like freedom at first sight
I laughed at fear, I mocked the fall
Said I’m not like the rest of them all

I played with fire, felt no shame
Every warning sounded lame
I said I know just what I’m doing
Didn’t see my soul was losing

I thought I was strong
I thought I had control
I never thought the fall
Would come for me at all
I thought I was strong
Thought I’d never break down
But here I am in pieces now
Yeah, I thought I was strong

I fed my hunger, fed my pride
Said I’ll quit whenever I decide
I watched the cracks grow every day
Still told myself I’m okay

I saw the mirror look away
Didn’t like the man who stayed
I said this road won’t ruin me
Now ruins all I see

Strength isn’t running from the truth
Strength isn’t doing what you choose
I built my throne on lies and pride
Now I’m buried on the inside

I thought I was strong
I thought I had control
I never thought the fall
Would take this heavy toll
I thought I was strong
Now I know I was wrong
I didn’t fall all at once
I was falling all along